From The Heart

pregnant!

2012-02-02T20:45:00.001+08:00

NO! I am not pregnant. It's just that it is the trend..after getting married..then you get pregnant. Well, some people get pregnant first then get married. but it does not matter. For most people..I mean women, it is just a matter of time to be pregnant. One of my friend...well, two actually, is pregnant. I am just thinking what to get them!strollers would be good but here where we are living? people hardly even go walking outside their house! If the couple is staying in a four season place..somewhere in Australia or UK...maybe strollers would be an ideal gift! I remember getting one for my church friends when I was studying....not very cheap but a great gift during baby shower!

Just before I get started with ideas...I should think of what to get for a good friend's wedding which is coming up in April...and another one in May! =)

And I do not wonder when I will get married. As far as I am concern, it is not in my plan this year or the next! =)

w-h-y

2012-01-30T21:24:00.001+08:00

Frankly speaking, I've thought about death and dying. Many people think that life is so great...etc...but for me, it is so painful. Call me EMO now but I feel that maybe death is one of way to relieve pain. When everything fails....well, it is one way to relieve.

Work isnt a problem for me now....and to some extend, I pretty much enjoy my work. I can finally smile and laugh..and I see myself happier in photos.

But when I come home....gosh, I wish that I am dead! Why do I have to feel like this? I feel bad feeling this way but to be honest...it is really what I feel. I am disappointed the way I am treated. I can't give any comment and whatever I say will be qouted as wrong or 'reverse pyscology' and as if I am wrong and I am just so useless.

Isnt family suppose to be people who can accept whatever others say? And now, I cant say a thing because whatever I say is WRONG!

Then I might as well not speak and be dead!

I am so disappointed!

I try so much to tolerate and every time I try to reverse and give way...I am hit in the face!

What did I do wrong? Didnt what I say is all the truth? I am just stating the obvious and you have to treat me this way!

I dont want to live this way! I guess if I die, you would be happier...you can have all the Ipad and Iphone you want!

Life is so hard! Why am I still living?

Colours

2012-01-27T07:58:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wish that things were easier in the first place.

But at times, a life without challenges can be pretty boring. I think it is the matter of seeing the glass half full or half empty. I may have chosen a path with more thorns on the way.. but that does not mean I won't be able to go through this journey, no? It will only be a little harder..

Sometimes I wish that life can be like testors paint - you can try the colours and decide later on which colour you want at the end of the day. You won't be obliged to use it because you were just testing out. I suppose, however, life is not as simple as that. Of course, you can argue that we can paint over a wall if we deem it unfit for the colour.. then again, it is hard work to repaint the entire thing all over again.

Therefore, we choose to live with the decisions.. the colour we once decided. Whether it is nice, trendy or not.. we have decided. And we live with it.

A little reminder!

2012-01-27T07:53:00.001+08:00

We move on

2012-01-27T07:43:00.001+08:00

It was just before midnight. A click came through the phone. I was in bed reading the Kindle and was slightly lazy to read the text half knowing it won't be anything exciting or urgent.The name came up to surprise me. A frown formed on my face. "Booo" was the content.It was as hard as challenge coins to decipher. I was wondering..To cut the long story short, it didn't take 12 hours before the actual intent was expressed. I was disappointed but then again, I am so used to this.. it does not even matter as much anymore. We move on. This is a haiku for you..I have known too wellDid not even take that longIntentions revealed

happy dragon year! ^^

2012-01-22T13:21:00.000+08:00

Wow...it's CNY eve today...and we're cleaning the house! washing and washing the front porch. And I manage to buy McD breakfast for everyone! Yay! Though for me, it is quite pointless to clean up everything just for cny and then at the end of the week, or maybe tomorrow, it will be dirty again...but the cleaning is meaningful as we are welcoming the new lunar year!This year, got to give 'angpaos' to my parents too..but it is going to cost me! Hope next year I can give them 1927 silver dollar or something more special rather than just cash! =) But what matters is the heart! Lots more to do...mom is doing most of the cleaning which makes me feel very helpless as I couldnt really help much. Just sit and watch her. =(( Hopefully she will let me do somethings...like prepare some dishes for tonight's grand dinner!I wish everyone..EVERYONE is back for CNY! Erpit and Sanpit....the Tings...and Ah Wei! I wish everyone would be back....it is a looonggg time since we all celebrated together! Hopefully next year! ^^

wedding bells

2012-01-10T18:40:00.000+08:00

Just bought my tickets to UK! =) This time, I am flying with Sharon. A travelmate I've never traveled before...but I think it would be wonderful as we are going there for one purpose....for Steph's wedding! can't believe I am flying all the way to UK and then to Germany for a wedding!
just need to get myself some Circuit City coupons to get some good down deals while in Europe. Having coupons or vouchers will definitely help budget the trip!All I need at this moment is my leave being approved and confirmed. So, God, please bless me indeed! ^^ Then, next on the prayer list is to pray for the right city to visit....for God's provision and protection wherever we go. It will be quite a hectic trip considering we only have so little days and so many places to we want to go! So, Lord, provide for each of us! ^^

The end of 2011

2011-12-31T09:56:00.003+08:00

I still cant believe it is the end of 2011. This year seems to be very eventful. A lot of changes in my life and also decisions made. I was a bit lost in the begining of the year and was still no where near found by mid-year. But towards the end of the year, I sort of know what I really wanted and how I feel. Even though i have not yet executed anything...I feel the time isnt right yet...maybe next year!

As I look back, my goals for this year has not been achieved...not even one! Sadly to say...what have I been doing this year! bleak! nevermind...I still have 2012.

=)

As for now...all I want is to be happy!

Bottled Passion

2011-12-30T22:53:00.003+08:00

My new craze...a romance drama which is so sweet....

Charming actor and a beautiful actress!

shopping spree

2011-12-07T21:13:00.001+08:00

Had a wonderful time shopping in Midvalley last weekend. Wow! I spent more than I could afford.....good thing I didnt have plastic cards to sweep...if not, it would definitely be overspent! I went looking for gifts for Christmas..which was really fun! Love shopping for people! I also came across some beauttiful engagement rings....but who is getting engaged lately? Also..not really suitable for be to buy for people....opss..but if anyone is going towards that road, you can ask for my opinion, yea!

Finally bought lovely handcreams for my friends. Hope they love it! And got my parents lovely sandals...which I hope they love it too....and they said they will be wearing them for CNY! Noo!!! Haha....

change

2011-12-07T21:10:00.001+08:00

One of my friend changed his job just the second day he started HO. He is the only one who was daring enough to quite what he didnt like and move on.....should look to him as Room Director Jobs in case I plan to change my job after 2 years! Looking for another job out from my field is pretty hard..who wants to hire this..going-to-be-27-year-old lady! =((

Now being in the Anaesthetic Department..I am getting used to how things flow....sadly enough one of my friend who is doing anaesthetic decides to change to another department. I suppose the amount of stress for long term isnt that healthy after all!

God, please guide my way and show me where You want me to go!

wishing for the best

2011-11-21T19:19:00.001+08:00

It's end of the year...in just one month's time...it is going to be the end of 2011. And like every year..I would ask..have you achieved your goals for this year?! I do not have a long list for this year but I can say....none has been achieved. It is sad that this year has passed me by. But I have one more month to go...hopefully there will be a miracle!

Need to get going on my reading...since I started my Mo-ship..I have not been reading much....it would be great to have my own medical computer cart. Then I can keep and store all the information needed! =)

I am going to read on PAIN! Pain seminar coming up this week. Pain...is it a sensation or a feeling? What do you think? Pain makes us feel alive....agree?

being nice!

2011-11-21T19:16:00.001+08:00

Who doesnt like to be nice! but you need a bank-full of goodness and pureness of heart! As for me..I am far from being that. My next step is to get my eyelashes to be more curl and longer! I have found the best eyelash growth product on the net but am yet to try it out! Many people recommend using mascara to lengthen and make the eyelashes look longer and curlier but ever consider the work to get them off! Also some told about eyelash implants! OMG! The amount of work you need to put in just to maintain it...geez...let me go!!

Natural is the best beauty but if you can give nature some touch-ups it might look even nicer! =)

When is my turn for a makeover?

True north

2011-10-26T04:27:00.001+08:00

"So you know what I mean when I say that I don’t think anyone who falls in love has a choice. You’re just pulled to that person like a true north, whether it’s good for you or bound to break your heart."

Christmas is coming soon. Though some even claim that Halloween isn't even over, but I can see plenty of Christmas decors everywhere and the retailers have definitely get all ready for a Christmas bash. Just start with the food section, people!

Last time, it used to be gifts for friends. But nowadays, more and more friends are settling down and having kids.. so I suppose the shift of mindset is now towards christmas gifts for toddlers? LOL!

Anyway. Christmas or not.. we should know the real meaning. Not everyday present, okay!?

day 2 - discovering the purpose

2011-10-20T22:35:00.001+08:00

Today is day 2 of my MOship. It is scary...but I feel that I am walking through a dream....more like floating through one. It is not my dream...rather I feel it is a shadow. I am alive yet I feel like a zoombie....still looking for a purpose and wanting to move towards it.

Yet each day feels as if they must be fulfilled and at the end of the day, I feel I've not achieved anything! Something must change! Should I put on contacts tomorrow? Draw my eyes? Put on simple makeup? But for what?? What should change? ME?

Help me Lord...teach me the purpose You have for me, so I can walk in it!

dear God

2011-10-17T22:44:00.000+08:00

Dear God,Give me strength to face tomorrow. I need You to help me through it all. Guide me O God in all the things that are to come. I know You jave the best for me bit give me strength to face all things. Give me courageand faith to walk woth You. Hold me hands o God. Lead the way.

goodbye my friend

2011-10-17T11:52:00.002+08:00

for the past 2 years, I've always had the same posting as my friend...alwasy being together and I must admit, a special friendship formed. It is amazing how through this 2 years, I've got to know someone so special and so great! And now, we are finally separating...going away from each other...she's leaving for the South..and as for me, my fate is unknown. I do hope to be where I am now.

And it is hard to understand, yet again...how does it feel to be moving away... which truck gps to use...but one thing for sure, she is moving there with her honey! She would be happy there...despite having to leave her family, she is making a new one there! ^^

Life can be so funny at times...so irony. But what can I say...I am just a passerby at this moment in life.

May God give me strength to face all that is to come!

library

2011-10-06T07:49:00.000+08:00

Do you remember how libraries are like? If you are given a project to do...a scrapbook to finish, 10 years ago, we would resort to find information from the library. But nowadays kids will only know how to search from online and hence the term free digital scrapbooking! It is easy finding info online. I do not need to buy books or go to a library that do not even have the books and information I needed. Now, I just need to click on my computer and all the information and maybe even more than I need is there!

A grave situation happened to me yesterday....a nightmare that is so real and will hunt me for some time....I wish things would be easier and I can settle it ASAP but it does not seem like it now..

God, help me to settle all these ASAP! Thank you God!

life at work

2011-10-06T07:14:00.002+08:00

After started working, I find it hard to clean the house and do chores. there is always not enough time! if only I own my own automated clearing house, then it be easier and the house will always be clean and neat! I do wish to be able to do the chores..having to clean your own house is an enjoyable thing which most people does not think that way.

As for now, more things to think about and settle before I can start doing my household chores! Ok! Moving on to my presentation preparation for next week! Aiks!

give me strength

2011-09-27T10:34:00.001+08:00

2 Timothy 1:7
New King James Version (NKJV)
⁷ For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

Amplified Bible (AMP)
⁷For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control.

Thank you, God!

playing the sims

2011-09-22T07:59:00.000+08:00

I am so addicted to the Facebook game - The Sims Social. Of course it has a few disadvantages compared to the original game. And I cant really get all the good furniture like clawfoot bathtub or the excotic living room items because they all need real cash! I do not see the point of paying just to play the game. Sounds a bit odd to me....but so far, my Sim is surviving! As for the furniture, I am trying to earn as much as possible to give the best furniture for my Sim! A big comfy bed, a nice study table, and good bathroom items....it would be perfect! Then, to extend the house and new decorations! Ah! Perfect!!

Shall continue the game now...

the sun

2011-09-18T10:33:00.000+08:00

Finally got my hair done..it is kind of 'bright'...I mean the colour. And for sure u'll need a good sunglasses on while looking at me...I would recommend Arnette sunglasses for that! And the new cut is really different..it is no longer the old straight symmetrical cut..this time it is asymmetrical and has it's own style. I hope it will continue to look as cool as it was first cut!

New colour, new cut! Amazing way to start my 3rd month in Anaesthesia Department!
Finally I've submitted my posting form. Though I feel it is pointless to fill up such a thing but nonetheless it is the procedure. But before I end my posting, I still have 2 presentations to do and one viva to pass! Wish me all the best, yea!

Tanks everybuddy, tanks!

Potato salad

2011-09-02T04:07:00.002+08:00

Me: Meeps, I want to make potato salad.

Meeps: Ewe, don't make these things for me to eat when I am there.. All these what salad lah

Me: ADUHAI. You fussy girl! Mummy says you're like a puppy. Only eat meat one.

Meeps: HAHAHAHHA!! Yea lah! I like meat

Me: Bring you go eat CKT lah!

Meeps: Later people ask.. wah you go London eat what? Then I say char kueh tiaw.

HAHAHAHHA!! Okay, this is another snippet of the just for laughs!

A piece of you

2011-09-02T04:02:00.002+08:00

Collectibles and collections are always fun. It is exciting to start a collection of something - it could be something simple like stamps, badges, lapel pins or even coins. I think the experiences you gain from the attempts to collect the items can be rather enriching. If you want to kick start off a coin collection, or add some to your collection, you may want to look into the morgan dollar coins.

That aside, I wish life is as fun as collecting stamps or coins.

However, I am sitting here with a belly full of adipose tissue, wondering if I should prescribe colloid or crystalloid on the prescribing worksheet.

It isn't fun, trust me.

I wish there were better things to do.

Emo songs

2011-09-01T05:31:00.001+08:00

What are you?

2011-08-29T03:41:00.002+08:00

When I was young, I had all sorts of ambitions. I once wanted to run a music academy. I didn't realise not only I struggled so hard just to pass my ABRSM piano exams every year, I was also officially tone deaf.

After that I went on to thinking about becoming an interior designer or an architect. I love home decor and everything to do with designs. You might think I would have even resorted into looking at the Network Architect Jobs. It is, again, the most unrealistic ambition. I am rubbish in creativity or design-related matters. Fail.

Then, I thought - a doctor, I shall be. I didn't know that it is such a demanding job. I took that path. Almost there, but it took me 10 years to realise that I am not suitable at all for this. At least, personality wise.

Sigh.

sneezing away

2011-08-12T19:29:00.002+08:00

OMG! I am sneezing nonstop since this morning! Did I caught a superbug? or I just caught a simple cold from the chilling OT last night?! Nnoo!!! I hate being down with flu. Moreover, I have to be oncall on sunday! Not too great to be down with flu then! I suppose I need to have high risk life insurance just in case.....in view of me working in ICU = having lots of superbugs flying around...a simple low immune might drive me into a bad flu compared to the other community bugs.

*Sneeze*

Geez, i definitely need to get some rest now.

Quite a very busy department....looking at the amount of post I am writing since I entered this department...hardly 10 posts!

Long hours and low pays.....who can help me?!

Of smartphones and long-lasting phones

2011-07-13T01:10:00.002+08:00

Gone are the days when you charge your phone every 3-5 days. Nowadays, I sometimes even have to charge it twice a day! When it got really bad, I was bringing my mobile phone charger everywhere with me and when I see a electric socket, I would plug it in, hoping to suck some energy into my phone for it to last an extra 20 minutes or so.

There was an episode in the clinic when I saw a socket from the extension beside my seat. I indiscriminately charged my phone during the clinic, hoping no one knew. It was borderlining hilarious. But this is the reality - smartphones are fun. But their batteries don't last.

In the end, I bought a new battery with bigger capacity. That just meant it added more bulk to my phone. But hey, I would be buying extra batteries or what. Look into motorola phone batteries if you need that extra boost or security.

'Til then, cherios!

Exciting days ahead

2011-07-13T00:54:00.002+08:00

Hello! I forgot to introduce myself - I am the new writer on this blog. *throws confetti*

I will write on general topics on this blog.. fun, boring, serious, non-serious matters all in a cocktail. Being the co-author on this blog will definitely spice up this space! I am the biological sister of the original author of this blog. We grew up together for 16 years or so before she left to Europe for studies. I then left and now she is back home.. so we don't really coincides. Every time we meet, we fight. We could even fight over the phone. -.-

But hey, they say blood can't be cut off? Something along the lines?

So, next time you find us in a Nemo Losi Tent, we probably are fighting as well! I think that is what makes us uniquely siblings. What can be better!

A new determination

2011-07-13T00:49:00.002+08:00

Hmmmm. I haven't been to the gym very often these days. Been doing workouts in my room.. which is borderline being hilarious and ridiculous. I am even getting a little pumped up to purchase a set of dumbbells and possibly some yoga mats to aid in my home workout.

I honestly don't know how long this will last but we can always try, can we not? YouTube videos have proved to be a good help! I don't know how disciplined I can be - I definitely a push! Perhaps workouts in my room, in addition to joining classes such as circuits, zumba and body combat?

Will that help? Somebody!?

Oh, happy days!

2011-07-06T23:19:00.001+08:00

We are entering the depth of July! It may be a good few months away from end of October but some people are already looking into Halloween party invitations. And really, we should think of happy days!

Currently I am having some odd skin reactions again, most likely triggered by stress. But otherwise, I have a new found hobby - Zumba! It is fun and most importantly, it is a good workout. I recommend to everyone who are dance-shy yet harbour this secret dream to dance one day at the corner of their hearts.

Seriously! It's fun and almost borderline addictive!

Reality.

2011-06-30T07:19:00.001+08:00

I think it is every girl's dream to have someone propose to her.

But. Reality remains. We can dream all we want, but we know that reality is..

Oh well. Does it even matter for us to pen down? Does it even matter? I think it is quite sad how we always expected ourselves to be normal. Meet a guy you love, settle down and live on. But at the end of the day, we are either dreaming our blue diamonds away, or we are just plain delusional.

We wake up every morning realising that 7am means LATE to work. Finishing at 7pm means, oh that is counted early! On-calls? BOOOO! The sweat pores open up. The humidity kills. The underarms drenched in perspiration. Hair? Messy to the ceiling. Contact lenses cannot be tolerated.

I-don't-even-care-what-I-wear-anymore.

Welcome to my world.

fights

2011-06-16T11:01:00.000+08:00

Had another mini-fight with sanpit. Aih...it is all misunderstanding. I dont know how...firstly she wants to get a new phone..with gps nuvi..something like a HTC or Samsung.

I am not against it but I feel she should control her spending habits. She spends like there is no end to it! To me, she never consider if a thing is worth buying, worth getting...if she really needs it..the value for money and the most important thing - if she can really afford it. She gives a million of excuses that she is always bullied whne she was younger and she deserves all these but does she ever think that maybe she doenst really need it.

This fight never ends..and it has been like this for years. I rather not even go into it. Whatever she wants, just get it and dont ask for my opinion because I will always say NO! At least I am earning my own money and spending my own sweat and tears. As for her...her parents are working so hard to provide her and are so thrifty just so she can enjoy her life...why can't she be more considerate towards her parents!

Aih..

PA: The pride

2011-05-26T21:19:00.001+08:00

I came back home, tired. The gym routine is halted, at least for today. I think the sudden chill just got to me. I felt unwell. And fat, too. It is quite sad because at this rate I am going, I can't seem to eat all I wish without paying a visit to the gym. I tend to overeat. A day without gym totally kills me. I just sometimes wonder, why would some people look to hgh to gain weight while I am here being so desperate to lose weight?

No one truly understands my misery, I am certain!

clay season

2011-05-14T16:10:00.003+08:00

it is the clay season for the tennis world....not table tennis, TENNIS! Soon, it will be Roland Garros and then Wimbledon. Ok...I do not dare to imagine how Federer will be playing..people are all thinking that maybe it is time for him to retire...but hey..he is doing something he love and he is earning lots and lots with that!

How many people out there can actually earn that much...and is still doing the thing they like.

Not that I am rumbling about my work and stuff but we can only judge people at a distance but why not look into our lives and see what else is still missing.

work out!

2011-05-14T15:57:00.002+08:00

Ouch....remember how certain people would buy testoripped just to gain muscles while working out? Or drinking protein drinks to build up muscles...just suddenly remembered I should have ran a few miles on the treadmill before bathing!

Oh well...can't burn that extra fat! But at least I am not sleeping my afternoon off! Went to my dental appointment..change new bands, and off my elastics. Then got myself some McD....went to Bintang Mall alone.....kinda bored tough! The place is packed with people! oh dear...is there somewhere empty during weekends?

And now I am looking for something to download..... bleak!

graduations!

2011-05-14T15:48:00.002+08:00

Wow...jsut saw some of the Junior's pictures....posing for their graduation pictures. Geezz....time flies, it is already 2 years since my graduation and I didnt feel a thing! No more time to think about what color of eye shadow to use to class or what shoes to match my blouse...now it is all about what time i must get to the hospital and how i can finish my rounds! And mostly what i wear is just OT scrubs or nursing scrubs. Something very comfortable and I do not need to worry much!

Or I can wear our HO tee!

This is more like it! Just too bad I do not have my name printed on the sleeve. Oh well..if my skin condition do get better..or I end up working in aircons..maybe I can consider using makeup! One day.....

chat chat

2011-05-10T19:03:00.005+08:00

Chat chat chat....who is in your Téléphones cellulaires list? Who can you call? or rather, who can I call? I feel like talking..talking a good and quality conversation...but who is willing to hear the crabs and prawns that i've got to say?

Sometimes...most of the time, a quality conversation does not need to be long.....just a short and hearty one will make the social bar goes up full!

As for me..my social bar is climbing down....I've not talked in a few days....no good conversations outside home. I am only talking to my patients and to my superiors which is totally not helping in my social bar.

I need to talk...are you willing to listen?

what is special?

2011-05-10T18:58:00.004+08:00

I was asked 'what was special in my life' today. And guess what I answered....

Friends.

Friends are like life term insurance that you have...there will always be there....maybe not for the bad but most of the time will be there for the good. The same thing that goes for insurances...we know we can afford it when we are in good terms but when something happens, insurances are the backup plans and the things that can support us.

We can't expect much from friends but we know there are the only people in the world that keeps us connected....hard to explain how it works...

But it is said that we meet up to more than 30 000 people in our lives. Personally knowing just 300 of them, and knowing closely and intimately only about 30 people.

I qoute that from Akai Ito....which I feel is really true. =)

Who is the friend you have in mind when you have something happy to share about...or when you are broken hearted, you need a listening ear.....

transformed

2011-05-02T17:33:00.002+08:00

Wow, it has been a long time since I last wrote. Sometimes I feel as if I've lost direction in my blogging life. I've started blogging for already 10 years! Starting off with writing short poems filled with my feelings..(yes, you can laugh all you want) and then deleting the precious blog, there goes all my effort. And this blog..I suppose there are many times when I wanted to delete it or rewrite it. But the precious things that I've written makes me stop and feel that there is more than just deleting it. So in the end, this blog is still here.

And when I start working, there are less time available for me to write...I've got to study, read up things regarding my work like ghr1000 reviews or some kind of obstetric drills..now that I'm in obs and gynae. I do wish that I have more enthusiastic to do things.....yea....there goes my afternoon...

a day

2011-04-23T08:17:00.003+08:00

had a small lunch with friends at my home. it was pretty fun. even though we were all tired, postcalls and so, but having to sit together and talk is fun! i should have invited more but they were the people i'm most comfortable with!

we talked about everything from work to life and gossips! No need to hear more about Medicare part D plans as we are already part of the medicare system!

Gossiping about...guess what? Our specialists!! OMG!

Anyway, it was great to be able to catch up with them.

Then, late in the evening, Jas and hubby came. Went to eat satay which she was totally not interested in...ok, fine. No comment.

PA: When you are bias

2011-04-09T03:05:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I am borderline disgusted at myself for being so bias. I can shun everyone away citing I am busy, yet towards a particular one, I would give in. All the time. I would be on the phone for nearly 2 hours when I was supposed to be 'busy'. I would give in all the time. And there is this soft spot that no one could explain.

Life.. it is not easy to justify. I like to justify. But at the end of the day, I know who hurts the most.

On another matter, I would be trying hard to lose weight, but at the same time partly wish that someone else would gain. Maybe try some testosterone cypionate? LOL!

dear God

2011-04-03T17:47:00.002+08:00

God,

where did i go wrong?

I am suffocating....I cant breath!

What have I done?

Where are you?

I cant breath, God!

I feel like dying.....

my God, help me!

remembering

2011-03-27T20:09:00.002+08:00

mom and dad went back to Sarikei for ching ming. Sarikei..I'm not sure if it s a good place to be wokring in. It is a small town with a new hospital. Beside the fact that it didnt have an airport, other things like the town and the housing is still acceptable. Not to mention the need in improving the playgrounds at the riverside with some good commercial playground equipment!

Nonetheless, the Sarikei playground will always be a childhood memory for me. Growing up there, and playing with my cousins....it is one thing that can never be repeated again. Everyone has grown up, changed in their own time and ways. No matter how we try to conform to each other, the fact that we have been apart for years and the fact that we are all in different worlds, makes each one of us different. the only common thing we have is the memories we shared together!

April is just around the corner.....what will this month hold for me?

whatever happens

2011-03-23T20:50:00.002+08:00

It is finally march...my birthday month. A year has passed, so fast. So many things are due....life insurances, cheap car insurance, income tax and so many more are due. Speak about income tax! i have not even registered for my e-salary statement and have not yet get my annual statement to report my tax!

Plus...my facial stuff are all empty..need to reload new moisturizer and toner..maybe add in some new facial stuff...and meeps keeps on asking for a Samsung galazy S! And someone across the ocean is paying for rental that she is not even staying in!!! I wish I have more $$ then i can make everyone happy.

Need to do more calls next month...initially this month I have 9 oncalls but one is taken by a newbie..so in the end I have only 8 calls. I feel though I can earn extra Rm100..but rest is more important!

swollen eyes

2011-03-23T20:47:00.002+08:00

it's been a month in O&G and I got myself a swollen eye and some kind of arthritis pain of my hand and fingers from doing too many VEs! Sometimes I feel like it is cramping...and the pain would come and go...but normally it goes away when i stop working! This proves something...I need to stay away from work!!

Is that even possible?

And talk about me swollen eyes. Only 3 people noticed...I am actually glad someone I never expected to notice it..would notice....it is kind of obvious but how can anyone miss it? Do they even look at me when they talk to me? or they care less about what ever that happens to me?

I wonder....

PA: Oncology

2011-03-11T22:02:00.002+08:00

I have been in the oncology firm for a fortnight. It is really depressing how you see people get cancer, the cancers spreading and many are just hopeless. It is a lot of emotions and burden all cocktailed together. Families are pulled in, worked are missed and everyone gets upset and wonder when would it all be over.

It makes me realise that health is indeed important. It is quite so important that I would think a look into Blue Cross Blue Shield NC may be helpful for those who want a healthcare plan, especially those who do not get it freely in their country of residence. It is a huge burden financially if you are struck with, say, cancer, one fine day. The amount of work and consultations are almost endless..

And you wonder.. why bother?

Missing erpit and sanpit

2011-03-07T20:43:00.002+08:00

I wish everyone is back for my bday! Even though this is a really nice day...being able to spend it with my family, I wish the other pits are around...erpit and sanpit! If only we have Conference calling thingie...then it would be great...you can all sing happy birthday to me! Won't it be great?!

Work today is BUSY! As usual...but I'm getting the hang of it so it's not too bad. At least I am working with group of people whom I enjoy!

BTW, it seems my phone is down with flu! =((

I feel different

2011-02-24T23:09:00.001+08:00

This posting feels different to me. Unlike other postings, which i need more than a week to accept the department, new settings and working life, this posting makes me feel belonging. Though it is really tough...my knowledge and skills are not up to what is expected but give me more time and I can be better in it!

Gambate!

PA: A lot of lots

2011-02-22T22:21:00.002+08:00

Maybe I should stop lamenting about weight loss or fat burner ideas. There surely are greater and more important things in life, no?

I mean - take a look at life. We sometimes work so hard that we hardly have time for ourselves. We fail to appreciate people and things around us. We get so worn out and easily displeased that we just make enemy with everyone who gets on our nerves. We then justify ourselves saying that we ought to. We have the right. Whatever.

It guess we need to put things into perspective at times. Hardy life, but hey - when the going gets tough, the tough gets going, alright?

PA: Of abundance, we have

2011-02-22T22:14:00.002+08:00

I was in the gym today when I realised how much weight I have gained. I tried resisting diet pills in the past, but there might be a time when I finally succumb to it. I do think my problem lies in the food I eat. I tend to overeat. Binge eating when I don't need the calories. I tend to not be able to control my portions. I just don't think twice when I eat. I cannot be in control.

No wonder I have so much problem with the weight! I think it is high time to think of being in control of my daily consumption of calories. All the gym workouts in the world would not be helpful if I continue gobbling down like I have not eaten for days.

PA: Confessions can be handy

2011-02-22T22:03:00.002+08:00

Some say, we are not to dry our dirty linens in the public. Yet I would like to insist - even if it is something as extravagant as getting engaged to something as random as hunting for dark circles under eyes treatment deals, we all need to make some confessions along the way. Confessions make us feel relieved at times. Bottling up every emotion and guilt can just be so frustrating that it drives people almost insane.

So, my confession this time - I think I am as lazy as a sloth! I feel so ashamed and my lukewarm attitude towards my studies and profession. Where is that zeal? I used to be that top student. Now I am barely 'acceptable'.

I feel a stint of shame. And guilt, not to mention!

If

2011-02-17T09:41:00.003+08:00

A powerful word...if only I have more...if only it didnt happen...if only it could have been done. Ah...what a word!

I'm finally back for my 3 day 2 night trip to the capital. felt good about it but a bit reluctant to start my new job in the new department. Argh! I cant find my notes!

cant wait for this month's pay to be out...so much I need to pay..if only I have payday advance loans, then it would have settled most of the things. If....

Insurances to settle, bills to pay and savings to fill up!

Next thing to do is to lost weight! hehehe...

back from retail therapy

2011-02-17T09:35:00.002+08:00

Ok, I didnt exactly went for a retail therapy...just a holiday shopping spree. I'm glad I didnt spend too much but yet bought some stuff that are of need. Just that i didnt get anything for mom and dad. Meeps did suggest to get netbook computers for dad...but he's eying for the latest Ipad and I suppose it can wait!

Bought some clothes, which a few I regretted buying..never mind that. Nonetheless, i got something for shoo and hei! Really satisfied with that! ^^

If only I had more cash...and time...I would have gotten myself a real good watch, a new dress and shoes and handbags! Oh well...if only...

teamwork

2011-02-10T21:15:00.002+08:00

Teamwork among co-workers are so so important! There was a dispute in my workplace these few days and it lead to some ugly scenes. I feel bad about who was involved and who the bully was! From the start, there wasn't anything to be argued about but it kept getting worst and lead to more and more people involved. It's as if you need a Maritime Lawyer or some kind to help you speak to get out of it.

Anyway....can't people just forgive and move on. Why make everyone else feel so bad and awkward in the future. We are human and human makes mistakes. it doesn't mean that you are right all the time and others have to bow down before you and worship you just because you earn more than them?

Oh well....I'm sure this happens everywhere.

bedsores

2011-02-08T20:02:00.002+08:00

Finally, I'm counting the days left in Ortho Ward. I had one of the best calls in ortho...slept throughout the oncall and get paid! Some people would describe having an oncall till you get bedsores...meaning you sleep till you get sores! Well, it won't exactly happen if you have real goodorthopedic mattress!! But not for us HOs!

Next department, O&G. One of the busiest department in the hospital but must be really fun...looking at new life being born!

I shouldnt be thinking so much, mean time, just enjoy what is left of Ortho!

welcome febuary

2011-02-03T20:46:00.002+08:00

yes... February, daddy's birthday. And he has already hinted what he wants for his birthday. Ok, I might not necessary buy it during his birthday. Might just get it next week...it's a new laptop and most probably with laptop backpacks!

I can still remember getting him a new laptop just about a year ago! So fast...but nonetheless, it's a good thing because he is into all these technologies items. How many fathers out there actually has a blackberry, uses whatsapp to message his daughters and know how to use facebook?!

As for me, I've got lots of savings to do. Need to save for trips next year. Yup...I'm already planning for a trip for next year. I've got to make the fullest of what I have now. People my age are already travelling throughout the world...I can't possibly be stuck where I am, right?!

end of Jan 2011

2011-01-30T14:22:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow marks the end of the first month of this year. How much have you accomplished? Say, how many books have you read? Or dates have you been out to? How many movies have you watched so far?

For me, I would like to read some quality books, maybe from new authors that I've never come across. Even though I'm more interested in finishing most of Sidney Sheldon's books! Maybe move on to Robin Cook or Dan Brown. More exciting and thrilling stories of course! But as long as it is worth my time, then it should be fine.

Back to myself.....Jan has passed me by faster than ever. I cannot recall what I did or did not do this past month. And what I can remember is just as if Christmas was last week! Oh dear! I need to get myself together and really focus. Not to miss out on things in life!

beggars can't be choosers

2011-01-26T18:01:00.001+08:00

This has beens tucked in my find for the past few days. I'm pretty much depressed at how true the statement can be. Looking at the poor, having only to offer the basic when there are actually a better or best choice out there. it is sad that all we can offer is the most basic while the rich can go for better and faster treatment.

it is the same idea as choosing for iphone 4 cases. There are many qualities out there and the prices varies. If you only have a few bucks with you, then what you get is the cheapest and you can't really choose a better one because you do not have the capability to choose!

Beggars cant be choosers.

Then choose not to be a beggar!

PA: Letting go

2011-01-19T05:02:00.002+08:00

Today I woke up realising that I should really wake up.

I realised that sometimes, growing too close to a friend can be hazardous. You start to treat your friend like family. When it is family, you do not say no. You sometimes fight or argue, but you know deep down inside, you are still family. You do not count to the very cent things you share or buy for. You think about them because they become your family.

But the reality is, your friend is still your friend and would never be family. One day, he will leave you because he will have his own family. You would be left with none. Because you are not his family. No matter if you have tried the best slimming pills in the market, or you wake up 630am for gym workouts..

Sometimes things just don't work as you wished. You could only wish. Or dream.

You need to wake up.

PA: Eating disorder

2011-01-19T04:54:00.002+08:00

Just got an email from my placement coordinator giving instructions for me to attend the Eating Disorder Day Unit day after tomorrow!! I guess I don't mind - partly because I do feel that it is something close to my heart. I wonder how are the patients there. Are those who tried slimming pills like Hoodia? Did they fall for some hoodia scam? What are their thoughts? How do they feel? What type of body image do they possess? How can I learn to be slightly anorexic? Teeeheee!

I really am curious. So I shall be keen. Alright?

sneeze

2011-01-17T18:41:00.002+08:00

URTI symptoms - running nose aka rhinorrhea....sore throat aka throat inflamed. Not feeling well...feeling abit feverish. But who really cares how I feel, right? Only God and myself. I just need a warm bed to jump into and sleep for the next 10 hours! Ahh....sleep therapy. That is the best thing for me at the moment.

Not exactly the best time for any best weight loss pills or something similar to work on me. All I need now is a good rest. Lot's of rest!!

Even though I am craving for prosperity burger from McD and also some good pasta.....but it is too far from my reach now. Let me just dream of eating them!

Off to my dreamland!

i want...

2011-01-16T18:35:00.001+08:00

I seriously need to get a new phone. Smart phones are everywhere in the market but all I want is a classic flip phone that looks like what Japs uses! I am so torn in between peer pressure and what I really want. Everyone thinks smartphones are good and the latest tech you should have but to me...I just want something simple. yet it is so hard to find! It is so hard to get in the market as there are lesser and lesser flip phones!

Anyway, the printer is out! Our home printer...no brother printers to use. Might have to buy a new one. I suggest we just settle with something more common, say Canon? or HP. Off to search for a new printer but I am unsure when we will actually find one! I do have one thing in mind right now - a new HD tv instead of a new printer! hehe...

PA: The clumsy girl

2011-01-15T00:32:00.002+08:00

Sorry to intrude but the PA has invaded this space for a while :)

Let me tell you a tale about one of the author's sisters. She is still an undergraduate student at age 25 (woohooo!) and she has a peculiar habit of clumsiness. She has experienced falling from going up and down stairs. She has slipped and fall at the pedestrian roadside. She has fallen during her night run. She has fallen at the escalator in her campus. She has even fallen in the bathroom last summer when she was home. You would probably think she would benefit from some sort of a non slip surface treatment?

There you go.. the teapot sis!

Online website builders

2011-01-15T00:30:00.000+08:00

Over the last decade and a half or so, the internet has grown exponentially in terms of its quantity and quality. The content one could find and explore is massive and beyond what words would usually describe. The amount and depth of information is almost indefinite - though we know, indefinite only appears to our one and only Creator.

But the internet, I must insist, has been a revolution altogether on its own. I believe that most people have now access to unlimited internet with great speeds. Not only can we access to the wealth of information online, we could also contribute to this borderless 'virtual' world out there. Many of us owns blogs, forums or websites. I remember having mini projects more than 10 years ago with my sister building websites using the humble Microsoft Front Page. Our websites were hosted on the free provider by those who might remember Angelfire or Geocities. Those were the days before blogs become so popular and easy to use. However, I think there is still a stint of beauty and originality in building your own websites.

Hosting your own websites and having your own domains have since become much more affordable and practical to maintain. However, not many of us actually have the basic skills to build a website from scratch. Unless, of course, if you are doing you are taking an IT course or something along that line. That is where an online website builder becomes a good tool for you if you have a vision to share or a business to launch on the world wide web. Remember - simplicity is what you want.

new ways

2011-01-02T09:41:00.002+08:00

The first post of the year! Well, last night, had a gathering at Cynthia's house! And I was again amazed with her beautiful pendant lighting! She does has great taste in furniture. I mean, if it was me, I will not have any idea what to get for the house! What else to say lightings!

Dinner was simple yet full of meaning. Somehow we all connected in our own ways. My mind did flicker a bit about where we would be in a year's time. People might be transfered here and there and definitely for sure there will be a lot of changes in our life.

How about me? Where should I be heading too?

Time to stop and think about it!

weekend with mom

2010-12-18T18:27:00.003+08:00

Only Mom and me at home today. Dad went to Kch, meeps went to Taiwan and the maid back to Indonesia. It was a purposeful day....except that we were only eating porridge for our meals! Not bad as a colon cleanser!

Mom had back pain! It's all because of the household chores she has to do, now that the maid isnt around! =(( I hope it will get well soon, now that she finally agreed to take pain killer for it! I believe it is really painful!

Dad will be back tomorrow, and I'm oncall. Hopefully not much cases so I can go to my ball tomorrow! ^^ Got the dress and the shoes ready. Only the earing and necklace. hehe...

Till next time...I'm off to watch Inception!

bye

2010-12-12T07:07:00.002+08:00

Opps...the dogs are in the car! They are going to send me to work again! The white car is down! I am not sure which part of the car broke down, maybe the ariens snowblower parts or could be the brake system. But it is now at the workshop. Hopefully it could be repaired.

Meantime, we still have Serena Nissan and Kelisa at home. Not bad......or does that mean there is room to get a new car? Camry maybe?

=( Jas' father in law just passed away last night. Even though she is back for the funeral...I still hope I could meet up with her. Do you think it is possible she'll drop by? =((

a serious thought

2010-12-06T21:33:00.002+08:00

I went out with cousin and we had some serious talk. Ok, it was not so serious as some might think....nothing near to how to compare diet pills or how to lost weight, or fastest way to look nice. Even though we talked it through a very fattening meal at Secret Recipe.

I think it is time i move on with my life. I shouldnt be so comfortable under daddy mommy's wings. There are some things I must learn to to take and decisions to make. People my age is already considering which house to buy, wether to have kids now or not, which wedding dress to choose, buying wedding rings or even names of their kids. What am I doing? Coming back home and watching series. Going out and buying books for eeps. Then going online and play facebook game?

Thre is a big room for change and I want to have that change. It's time to grow up and just change.

Support me? or not?

Do Not Worry!

2010-12-03T06:53:00.001+08:00

Read a good devotion this morning!

Matthew 6:26
26Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?

How true is that. I know my Heavenly Father will always look over me and take care of me. No need for me to worry about loosing weight or choosing between Lipofuze or herbalife.

our HO is going to make a drama - remake of Conderella. I'm in charge of the audio....and let me commit it all onto God! Give me wisdom and strength and grace to do it perfectly. All glory to God!

Ok, off to work now....

monteggia....galeazzi

2010-11-30T18:40:00.004+08:00

monteggia....galeazzi...malunion, delayed union..non union! Oh no..so many definitions to remember! Ok..at least I dont need to read about male enhancement reviews! But so much more...where should I start! And why aren't the books that I ordered arrive yet!! If only they arrived today, I could have put them into full force! =(( Argh...and also, I'm planning to get a new stetoscope...should I buy it now? or wait till I finish my HO training? What colour should I pick...currently I have the ceil blue.

I saw a Mo having Lilac and another with Seaform Green (which is really nice!)...and other Ho with orange! The normal/usual colours are black, grey, burgundy......

Give me some ideas....

This is the book I orderd. One of the two. They say it is one of the best ortho books around!! ^^ Can't wait to jump into it and read one chapter a day! Hehe...

gambate ne!

viva

2010-11-30T18:33:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is my viva. Part 2 of my assesment in ortho ward! I am not so prepared but I believe God will put everything into place! Meanwhile, I've got to go back studying like the doggie down there!

I saw a few online boutiques in Facebook that ask to click here and then to show the clothes. I find it pretty nice. It is quite cheap, and the style is very korean or Japs...which I totally love!!!! But not being able to try on before buying...I'm still a bit uncomfortable about it!

Ok, back to types of fractures!

moving on, again

2010-11-25T20:42:00.002+08:00

I just found out one of my best friend is getting engaged or is already engaged. My first reaction isnt happy but shocked...but thinking back, this is the right age to get engaged, settle down and move on with life! I should be happy for her, and I am. I'm glad she is finally moving into the next phase of life and I am pretty sure there is more to come. I just can't believe that this good friend is finally going to move on, just like everyone else around me now.

What am I doing? Where am I now? ask me back in a year....

I shall not think so much about it now....I'm just going to wash my face, put on mask, and then a moisturizing night cream and off to bed! No point thinking over and over again about something I am hopeless about.

cut short

2010-11-16T19:57:00.002+08:00

I'm planning to get my hair cut short! I'm just wondering 'how short' I can go. How about this?

or this?
Of course, to look like those girls in the picture, I'll need to lost some extra weight and make my face look small! Before I can be there, I will definitely need diet pills that work! But what my lil' sis told me was that braces can actually change my facial features and somehow I might lost some weight due to the inability to actually chew!

So this coming Friday is going to be my make-over weekend! I'm getting my braces, cutting my hair short and facial treatment! Hope I'll look different by Monday! And do hope that I wont scare people away!

shopping!

2010-11-16T19:49:00.002+08:00

Me totally need acne products that could actually work! I have one acne that seems like it is going to errupt any time! It's as big as a seed! Ok...a small seed....not a durian seed! Haha!

Just got myself the masque above. It's kinda good, but i can be very spicy to the face. The after-heat that it gives the skin...makes me feel kind of worry. But so far I've used twice and it was good.

I just need to be consistent in washing my face and make sure there is no clogged pores and the next step would be to get rid of the scars! That would be my goal before this year come to an end. I'll need to make sure I can look as young as I was before! hehe...

drama craze

2010-11-14T19:07:00.003+08:00

I'm looking for a drama with the storyline that has to do with auctioning. Be it cigar auctions or even furniture auctions. I would love to watch a drama series with a strong story line! Sometime that can make my heart go wild! hehehe....

Sigh....

I feel so emo now! I wish I can have something to distract me, Alas! I think I've got to get out of this house and go do something to get myself off this drama!!! Maybe I shall buy that new shoe.....

Life is not a drama! Life is what we make out of it to be.

Gambate!!!

again

2010-11-14T18:47:00.002+08:00

Went out again yesterday! I was more like a barcode scanner, scanning through all the items that I saw, and checking if it was worth my money or not. In the end, I treated myself with a new masque by Bodyshop! It is pretty pricey but it feels nice after using it.

I am still thinking about the pair of shoe that I should have bought, that should have been mine. Never mind, if it is meant to be, I'll own it anyway....

For the mean time, I've just got to get things sorted out, calm myself down and not to be emo! And I'm planing for an image change this coming week. I'll start off with my teeth, then my hair!

Wait for me.....

girls' day out!

2010-11-11T18:46:00.002+08:00

We had a great time last night when all the girls in the Ortho team went out for a a retail therapy!

At first we planned for a short trip, dinner and maybe just walk around the mall and look for some things to buy. But in the end, it was all about shoes! We saw from flats to slippers to crescent moon snowshoes to high heels!

Of course it would have been great if I manage to buy one for myself. I looked at nearly hundreds of shoes last night but none that I really like. Maybe one or two but it is still not the one! But I did have one in mind and maybe I can get it during the weekend, if it is still there!

secrets

2010-11-04T21:37:00.002+08:00

Secrets are only meant to be kept in our hearts. Once it's said out, it is no longer called a secret.

Do you have a secret? Can you keep your own secret?

Aaaa!!! I'm torturing myself...feel like I'm so selfish! Aarghhh.....there shouldnt be any secrets!!! NOO!!!!

ok, I'm just over reacting.....over reacting!

PMS now, I suppose...as in...POST menstrual syndrome. =p

living in a rush!

2010-11-02T19:43:00.002+08:00

Surprise surprise! Meep's birthday today!

Happy birthday MEEPS!

Just wondering what i should get for her as a present. A new laptop with extended laptop warranty would be good. Her toshiba isnt functioning well at the moment. On and off screen problems.

Went out dinner this evening but the real fact was, it wasn't any special. As soon as I got home, I was hurried off to take shower and before I was even out of the shower, I was called to come down as dad and mom are leaving for dinner! hey! it's not even 6pm! As you can imagine...rushing to go out for dinner, we were rushing to finish dinner as well! less than 30 minutes the food were served, everything was in the tummy! The plan was that we were suppose to go to the Mall after dinner, and maybe look for a new camera.
And yes, we were in the mall for less than 15 minutes before we headed home.

We reached home a few minutes after 7 and just in time for dad to catch his 7pm series!

If you asked me if it was a good dinner? Quality time with family? I wouldn't know how to answer you as everything was in a rush! And now, everyone is back at home, doing their own things.

Life in a rush!

future

2010-10-24T23:02:00.002+08:00

Sometimes talking can be a weapon. We cannot really take what others say so seriously or our lifes would be very complicated. Some might think that having body acne treatments is a small deal but to another, it could be a crutial decision!

What have you decided today?
A year ago, I came to know 2 new friends who were getting married but after one year, only one will be proceeding with the wedding. Even though another friend called it off but that does not mean that she isnt finding any happiness at the moment. Breaking up might even be the best thing for her at the moment.

What is the best thing for you now?

week for me

2010-10-24T22:53:00.004+08:00

It has been a tiring week for me.....wish that things were more light going and relax. But that isnt what we can always get. More problems with acne and dry skin. Dry skin of my hand, actually. I've been washing my hands every hour and the skins are already wrinkled and dry! I'll definitely need pimple remover for my acnes and a good hand lotion for my dry skin!

Tomorrow will be my last day tagging. I'm not very sure if I am ready to take Ortho Ward as my work-family...this time has been a bit late for me to adapt. Maybe it could be the working atmosphere which has made me to be so protective over myself or something. But definitely I love the group of friends I'm working with at the moment! Totally praise God for them!! ^^

tag-tag-tag

2010-10-22T23:11:00.002+08:00

It's the tagging week! Currently in Orthopedic Department. A very unique place to be in at this time. I am not very sure it would be a good weight loss program because everyone commented that the work load is lighter and more relax compared to other department. But to me, for the past 2 days, it has been kind of hectic. Which I need to thank God for His grace that enable me to move on and on.

I do wish to lost that extra weight that I put on during my last holiday. Opps! And at least I would look better in my cheongsam for CNY! Pictures will be up soon after I get the dress from the tailor!

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That is all for now....till next time!

talking...

2010-10-16T17:06:00.002+08:00

Talk about having acnes...adult acne...having acne at this age...geezz...I thought acne only appear in teens. LOL! Any how, hope my skin improves!

Today has been quite purposeful...bath the two dogs in the morning, then went to breakfast..but was less than 30 minutes only...had dimsum in grandpalace...in less than 30 min! can you belie that? then, went to look for some furniture for the house...didnt find any suitable, then went to the market, bought some vege and headed home...then mommy moved some furnitures...but before long, i fell asleep..woken up after the brown furry thing came into the house! ahaha...

Now going out to eat...yay! ^^

careless!!

2010-10-15T09:37:00.000+08:00

Argh..I am so angry at myself for being so careless. I missed out a claim for my oncall last month! Argh..and I can only claim it next month! I am so angry at myself for being so careless!! How can I submit in the form without even double checking it! Argh!!!

=((

weddings

2010-10-15T08:24:00.002+08:00

Many people are getting married or is already married. This is the time where we get invited to weddings and see people get married. In a few years, we will be seeing people having children and so on. Wow, time do fly! If only I can stay 15 forever!

Thinking of what to wear for weddings, i think Diet pills with amphetamine might help. Not exactly the last resort though. I mean, to lost weight, there are tones of ways - healthy eating, exercise and more exercise. But it all boils down to ones determination to lost weight.

As for me, maybe losing some extra Kg would definitely make me look nice but the pain I have to go through...maybe not. I am happy where I am.

next appt

2010-10-14T08:59:00.002+08:00

My second dental appointment cost me rm250! For some pictures, dental mold, xray of my teeth and some advice. I am starting a journey which I am not sure if I will regret or not....It is definitely not something as simple as buying MP3 players or a new pair of shoes...

Even though I think my teeth are kinda straight...but why did I decide to proceed? Am I going to regret it?? OMG! What if I do? It'll be a waste of a few k!

Now the questions really come to me...do I really need it? Is my teeth so horrible? Even the dentist thinks it is a simple case...or am I just doing it to fulfill my childhood dream?

What is really happening?? Geez!!

End of posting leave is bad for the pocket and for the health!

i-craze

2010-10-13T09:20:00.002+08:00

It is all about the i-craze now..I made up that word from ipod nano, ipad, iphone and so on. Everyone is crazy about the i-word and the same goes to me. I wish I could get myself the new iphone4! Many would think it is just another phone, what is so special about having it when everyone else in the world has it.
How about getting myself an mp3 player - ipod nano? It does has some iphone kinda functions..like the games and stuff. Just that it can't be used as a phone. How about getting an Ipad? I am sure it would be useful but do I really need it? And what do I need it for?

In the end, I would still like to own an i-thing! Maybe in the near future...in a few years maybe? LOL! I still need to save up for my dental plans. Geez...I hope I didnt make the wrong mistake...

dental appt

2010-10-13T09:15:00.003+08:00

Oh no! I think I did something totally out of the blue!!! I just got myself a dental appointment for braces!!! OMG! It'll cost me a bomb!!! OMG! Is this the right decision? I mean...I'm old enough to make my own decisions but am I making the right one now?

it is going to be a series of appointments...first to get my teeth checked, then xray, getting my teeth molded...and so on! How long will it all take? Plus, I'll be starting a new department next week which means tagging tagging tagging up till 11pm!

chemo complications

2010-10-04T19:02:00.002+08:00

Sneeze!!! Cough Cough!!

Not feeling very good...I think it's because I diluted the chemo last week without proper attire! I dont think it is because of the apidexin scam or other things! Methotrexate and cytarabine....horrible chemo drugs!

Argh..even tough I slept for 2 days but still I didn't get better, added with the oncalls...it because disaster! Praise God I manage to change my call tomorrow! Yippie!

*dizzy*

Can't wait to be off next week....holiday for one week. Time is going to fly by fast which means I've got to use it well....need planning for the holidays! If not, I'll end up sleeping through it!

Where to go next?

2010-09-20T20:09:00.002+08:00

I'm thinking of a place to go during my coming holidays. I've been working with Amy and KL for a year, yet we have not spent enough time together....I did suggest a holiday somewhere. I'm thinking maybe KK or KL. It's either a good rest under the sun, with the shinny sands and clear water...or a good retail therapy!

Moving on with life, I should put a stop in thinking about best weight loss supplements and put my thoughts into action! The only way to lost weight is to exercise! That is the healthiest way!

Mooncake festival is coming up soon! Means more makan!!!! ^^

how much can you care?

2010-09-19T21:13:00.003+08:00

How much can you care if the other person is not responding at all? Do you push on or just stop?

That is the question for the night!

Tomorrow will start a new week of work....still the same old ward with same MO and nurses. Maybe new HO taggers...hopefully! Hope there will be more pharmaceutical talks on any topics regarding drugs or even fat burner products! Whenever there are drug talks, there area always food provided! Yay!

Life still go on.....and it's coming to the end of Sept. How fast has this month passed me by...what have I done in this 1 month - in this 30 days! What have accomplished?

Code Blue

2010-09-19T01:23:00.002+08:00

If you have the chance to watch it, please do, it shows how real the life as a doctor! It is no fiction or imagination...it's what we faces everyday.....but of course we do not have such handsome and beautiful doctors in real life! ahaha... =p If I want to be one of those beautiful ladies..I'll need some great effective diet pills!

Code blue is the only medical series that portrays life as doctors so real! I've never really seen such good series regarding this profession! If you think it's too much, then let me tell you, that is what we are going through everyday!

wake up!

2010-09-18T22:20:00.001+08:00

Reality check! Reality check!

Life can pass so fast that it feels like dreaming and it isnt true at all but the fact is...IT IS TRUE!!!!

OMG! What had happened in these few months! So fast the time has passed and I feel my heart dropping to the ground..could it be the coffee I just drank? Am I feeling the palpitation because of the reality check that just hit me? Or was it the caffeine?

OOHHHH no!!!!!!!! I dont like coffee...not even on the days when I'm off! NOoooo!!!!!

3 years

2010-09-18T21:19:00.003+08:00

Hotaru no Hikari was the Jdrama that I saw...I supposed 3 years back. can't believe time flies and now there is a second season! One of the thing that caught me was "what have you done in the past 3 years?" 3 years ago, I wouldn't have thought about which diet pill is the best or if my work clothes fits my shoes...and I still dont. But 3 years is 3 years and what has passed has already passed.

In this 3 years, I've learnt to let go of a lot of things and also to hold some things precious to me. We definitely will grow and change with time because daily experiences changes us..the way we perceive something to the way we react to a situation.

Have you changed in this 3 years?

What will happen in another 3 years?

great!

2010-09-18T13:02:00.002+08:00

I love the dresses that are sold online but before I can buy them, I must have Weight loss pills that work fast!! Then I can buy those dresses and wear them when I get them! I have my own style but so far, honestly, I think I'm a bit off the fashion road. I kind of wear clothes that are plain and simple. Making me look like I'm still 10 years ago....get me? Ok, maybe not!

Anyway, I was commented about my belly fat lately... Oh! U have fats!!! One of the nurses said...in a very shocking expression. And I was like.. duh! You think I look so slim meh?! In my mind, of course! Haha!

If only I could look like this...

Maybe I could wear this to Jas' wedding dinner! huahaha....

restaurant craze

2010-09-15T18:04:00.000+08:00

Wow...now we have coffee bar from Restaurant City. Not bad...a very fun game, I must say...always coming up with great ideas to make the players keep on playing....and always to ask our friends to log in to get the items! it used to be hard to get mint and now it's milk and so on! But it's great that they have all the items for free as gift! I think they should include Peg perego as one of the item as a gift...just to make the things more fun!

So if you're a RC player, do send me some milk! And I have lots of coffee beans to exchange if you are interested! ^^

off

2010-08-29T18:14:00.002+08:00

Xuan's off to UK. =(( No one to fight over the Hunter ceiling fans. It is a very sad goodbye...I wish I was the one leaving...not her. At least then, she could spend more time at home. And I wouldn't need to be oncall tomorrow!!!!

Life is back to my usual monotonous life...I wouldnt say there isnt anything to look forward too because at least I know God is still around to give me surprises and make my life more interesting! But having only meeps at home is kinda boring! Wish tat Lynthia and Xuan is around too!

Another thing is that my blog is down for the past 2 days! Argh!! Not good! Wish that it'll return back to normal soon!

make it purposeful

2010-08-28T08:10:00.002+08:00

Life can be as boring as you want them to be but it can also be as exciting and as fulfilling as you can make it! It all depends on how you look at things and how you make the best out of everything!

Just like an empty house, you can fill it with beautiful furnitures, and the latest interior design and make a small yet green garden outside with patio chairs. Or you can fill it with junks and call it a house.

Either way, it is a choice for you to make - either to make it the warmest home in the world or to turn it into a junkyard!

The same goes to our life! The power of choice is at our hand! What's your choice for today?

hemetemesis

2010-08-27T21:53:00.002+08:00

it means to vomit blood!!!!! Exactly what i'm feeling now...wanting to vomit blood! Muahahaha....

Rawr!